Monday, November 27, 2006
Ytd was a real funny dae for mi ..as u all noe our church hav a chartered bus svc tt bring members from expo all the way to simei mrt..i took the bus as i did nt wan to take mrt cos i gt bus consession..dan n hanxian took the train so we intend to meet at simei mrt den take bus to tamp to find the cg..i happily board the bus w/o looking at where it was heading for ..cos the bus looks familiar n i juz went up n find a seat..as the bus went out..in went by antoher way..gt a gut feeling i boared the wrong bus..the road seems unfamiliar den they call mi ask mi where i m ..i told them i call them back ltr..the bus went past tamp , paris ris..den it went by TPE..i thought it will go to senkang but it nv..it went straight past punggol..past yio chu kang..den went over to CTE den to finally Ang mo kio..when i alighted the bus..the SIGNs read :MEGA BOOK SALES ..EXPO TO ANG MO KIO!!!!!!!!!...ARGH...i felt so cheated by the sign..y didnt i look at the sign b4 boarding the bus..it taught mi a lesson ..look b4 gg aniwhere..haha..den took mrt down again to tamp to find them..wasted 1 hr journey when it can take onli 20 mins..argh!!den we slack at LJS for like 1hr+ den they pei mi go century sq to eat after tt walk ard for awhile..den mi tk dan hx n lebrace went to katong to play lan..
Then was talking to tk when he told mi something..it was something which i dun like n i dun wish to hear wan..but well..tts the truth..after hearing it i was kind of affected by it..but i choose nt to express it out..guess no one will noe till i type now.i was my normal self..looks happy playing lan with my members ..looks happy when watching soccer at nite wif shang tk n tk cousin..but the truth deep down in my heart was feeling sad..why?why?why?Ppl heart do change n ppl change..tts one hard fact noone wish to noe..its ok she sae she nids time..i juz wait n see hw..dun wan sae so much oso la..shes juz a wonderful gal..i m the one tt sux n cause so mani probs..nw having a bad throat oso..hate bad throat everything oso cant eat..sian..she bought for mi strepils n fruitips b4 svc ytd..the strepils did help alittle..yea..thks for buying for mi..
Friday, November 17, 2006
WHEN MY WORLD WAS IN DARKNESS YOU SPOKE YOUR WORD
NIGHT TURNED INTO DAY
YOUR BEAUTY FILLED THIS PLACE
WHEN MY WORLD STOOD IN SILENCE
YOU FILLED MY HEART
WITH SONGS THAT NEVER END
FOREVER I WILL PRAISE
TO THINK THAT THE UNIVERSE
COULD NOT WITHHOLD YOUR GLORY
YOU CHOOSE TO LIVE IN ME
I'M SO AMAZED
(AND) I WORSHIP YOU LORD
MY LIFE IN YOU RESTORED
HERE IS MY HEART
MAKE IT YOUR SANCTUARY
FOR NOBODY ELSE
BUT JESUS ONLY (YOU)
YOU ARE FAITHFUL AND TRUE
GLORIOUS LORD
ALL MY LIFE
IT IS YOU I ADORE
YOU'VE TOUCHED MY SOUL
COMPLETED MY WORLD I SURRENDER TO YOU
This song is entitled Santuary by City harvest church..been hearing tis songs for the past few days n realli like tis song..There is realli no place like God santuary..When ppl fail GOd doesnt..i oso dunno wad to type nw..there r juz too mani things on my mind..some i choose nt to type..no point typing here..cant be tt open either..well..All i can sae tts life..yup..feel like gg on a hols..juz leave everything behind n juz go relax..
Monday, November 13, 2006
Finally hope to see the old me back..coming back stronger n hungrier..juz now was talking on the phone with charmaine(my cgl) abt my personal life n i nv rerget that i msg her to told her i wanted to talk to her..haha..after weeks or mths of hestitation..she shared with mi alot stuff n i feel i can realli breakthru out of it..for nw its focusing back to my Goal..Thanks charmaine for tt talk it realli felt better ...a million thanks..after that called wen kai up to share wif him some stuff..den he oso prayed on the phone with mi..haha..realli a gd way to end the dae n kick start 2 the new dae..nw feel like a heavy load lifted away from me le ...its realli great..now its oso another time to prove myself again..haha..yup..kinda of tired le go rest liao...nite!
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
Firstly b4 i write aniting i juz wan to sae i m juz wanting to write out my feelings onli..no public attention or wadsoever..if u read tis post or happened to read it pls juz refer it to urself i dun wan be another public affair or wad..wadever u read from this post juz leave it here alright?No names wont be mentioned here..I juz hope n trust ppl whu read tis juz keep to urself if u consider mi as ur fren la ..
This few weeks had nt been a gd week for mi..Esp wif mi n Girl B..i noe alot ppl noe whu issit or wad..But i juz hope n pray no one ask mi aniting else n stop talking behind my back or wad can..i dun wan be the talk in town or wad can..i dun wan something like that to happened esp after it happeend wif mi n Girl A..i dun like publicity or wa la ..i juz wan to live life like a normal 19 yrs old guy..stop asking Girl B or mi aniting regrads le la ..
Things been on the rough btw mi n her ..she realli changed alot le ..well mayb its becos of wad i doing..not blaming her or wad..mayb right to this point onli my best fren tatkwek noes wad is happening in mi la ..This area of my life is closed to anione mayb except to him onli..i may nt be the same old guy le ..no longer do i trust ppl tt easily sometimes i felt betrayed by ppl 2 ..It was at a time when the 3 of us were the best of fren..mi kwek n Girl B...The boat left mi n Girl B after kwek left..nw it seems the boat no longer exists animore..i dunno wad wrong or wad..i noe ppl changed alot..haix..but y become like this..
This few weeks been thinking alot stuff..sigh.I realli hope things between mi n girl B dun turn out tt bad la..seriously i realli value her like hw i value tk 2..i hardly relate my probs 2 anione oso le ..tts mi as i hav grown up..did nt slp well for the past few weeks oso..becos of things between mi n her..i oso dunno la ..a happy boat turn out to be a wrecked boat..i realli didnt regret knowing her 2..she was wonderful back then..now i dunno la ..nt disliking her or wad..for nw the dun even wan talk to mi like tt or care for mi..haix..i oso dunno la ..sometimes i realli like the feeling of chasing after someone or liking the person secretly..or like its onli shared between best frens n we will tease each other abt it ..those were things in the past le ..everything changed rapidly n so does mani ppl..if onli i could turn back time i wont mind gg to the period where i secretly like her..at least so much things wont happeend nw..i realli enjoy the times with her..Esp last time the cycling outings wif her n tk..those times that i met her for dinner or breakfast ..times fly n character changed..When i was with her i hoped times stop n everything ard us juz stop, doesnt matter wad we been doing but having her beside was juz great.btw now telepathy nt realli working does nt means end le or wad la ... dun wan go on n on le..it will nv end..
I juz hope after you read this post do feel for mi by nt leaking it out or discussing abt it la..seriously it will be much appreciated..If u tink y do i still bother writing when i dun wan ppl to know..i juz nid a place to pour out everything..hope u understand.i nid find time again to pick myself out of tis mess i cre8ed..haix..i juz hope n pray things work out well for us again..thanks for all the wonderful memories..hoping to spend it again with u in the future..
"Soar like an eagle once again "
Monday, November 06, 2006
Been told to blog by some ppl..esp Josephine..haha..lol..tt rich kid is gg to Aus n Thailand..tis post is specially for u to remembered to buy my stuff from Aus..dun u dare forget..n u still owe mi a breakfast or lunch meal..pls make it come to past finally can nt ..haha..ytd was BF weekend..wow..it was great..excited for tis BF again..Believing God for mani breakthru to come..i thought abt them already..but i m going to write it down..yea..been raining quite consistently for the past few days..hate rain man..even though its cooling but i lazy bring umbrella out everytime le ..haha..i todae omost slept whole dae sia..so tired man..dunno why..haha..wanted to write more stuff down but still tinking whether shld i nt ..realli admire lincoln courage to blog his personal things down..hah..aniway kinda tired gg back to slp..
